I call this my "Big Bird" shirt and I ain't proud of it. Oh well I think that I have given up, not totally but of course there is the holidays coming up and the New Year is looming in the distance and making promises to me that I will have super motivation then but not now. Never give up, never surrender!!

My Arch-Enemy!!

I know that I have posted about this before but the problem keeps coming up!! I freaking love soda and Dr. Pepper specifically. I went off for an entire year once and went right back. I have even done Diet Dr. Pepper but eventually switch back to the hard stuff. How I love the burn of the bubbles going down my throat! I am still a work in progress but I am VERY aware of the huge statistics about how awful soda is for our bodies and how it can pack on weight the fastest. I am working on it ladies, I will never give up the fight. NEVER SURRENDER!! Dr. Pepper I shall defeat you someday!! ARRRGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Vacation and Food!!

My father in law passed away this past week so we zoomed up to Northern Utah for a week, that is where I packed on 6 pounds. My mom and others cooking for us not to mention going back and visiting all the familiar delicious restaurants from my hometown. Traveling 12 hours on the road didn't help either it was soda, chips, and licorice to keep us all awake. I need some SERIOUS tips on how to travel and still stay on track. Any tips ladies?????

Stinkin' Halloween Cookies

So... I love to bake and give away treats to neighbors and friends but of course as you cook you eat, and as you frost, you eat, and as you deliver them you eat some off of the plate. I am making no promises for Halloween night I will do my darndest. I did lost one pound this week so I feel completely triumphant. I think that my tonsils are healed up enough so that I can start exercising again. It really hurt when I tried before and was sucking some serious wind through them. Ya, me!!!

Bad Time for Weight Loss

Sooo.... exactly two weeks ago I got my tonsils out and THAT is when the challenge should have started. I lost a total of 11 pounds and I am feelin great. Unfortunately today and probably tomorrow are the days that I am feeling the best and when I will probably start eating foods for the first time in 2 weeks. I am not sure that I will do so great the first few weeks of this challenge but hopefully my stomach has shrunk and that will go in my favor. So don't judge me by the weight I am at right now it is a total fluke of nature. I might be completely level for a few weeks and won't lose anything. Good luck ladies I am checking all of your blogs and I am sprinkling dreams of diet drinks and vegetables towards your future goals.

Size 10!!

OK so because of the trip my husband and I are taking I ordered a whole bunch of clothes from Kohl's and of course I thought well... I am usually a size 16 or 14 but I'll order a 12 and low and behold they were tooo big!! I had to return all of the capris I ordered for 10's!! Holy moly cow!! I am getting way excited about buying clothes again. I can't believe it!! from a 16 to a 10 its unbelievable!! I ordered this cute little outfit above by the way and its super cute!

Kickin it into High Gear!

OK so I am at 143 now? Like what? I still see pictures of myself and I look absolutely no better than when I was like 170. Am I losing it from my neck or possibly ankles or something?? I really thought that I would be TOTALLY happy at 150 and than like 145 and still I am so unsatisfied. I must have some serious head problems. I have been running like a crazy person every morning and also doing Slim in 6 arms, butt, and abs. I think the Slim in 6 has helped me to burn more fat but not necessarily to tone me at all. I still loathe my stomach and wish that it would magically disappear. I barely got out of bed this morning to run but alas I did it and of course I was proud of myself afterwards. I just want results too fast(don't we all). I am refocusing on daily accomplishments such as did I work out today not necessarily did I yesterday or will I tomorrow. Little steps we've all hear it but it is so hard to master. Alright still moving forward.

Vacation, Therefore Motivation!

So.. I have been really unmotivate lately and not really feeling into it at all until I got this letter from my husband. We haven't been on a vacation together since our honeymoon and since it is our 10-year anniversary and we are going to a swimsuit ridden place I better get serious like now! I am totally recommitted and I am trying to lose 15 pounds by the time I leave that is May 12. We'll see if it can be done but I have done really well this week and I am feeling confident. I guess it really does take some serious incentive to get moving and I have found it!!

Regress, Regress, Always Regress

So I have rediscovered soda somewhat again. Not as bad as before but definently not good. I got this shakes today after drinking it and not anything else. I KNOW how much better I feel when I eat right and exercise but I still have no motivation. My new excuses for not exercising are: I deserve to sleep in so that I can have more energy for the kids, I'll do a longer run tomorrow, I can't get the right songs on a playlist on my IPod to keep me motivated while running, If I watch TV and run in the morning it'll just wake the kids up anyways and I won't be able to do it. It's just too cold to run outside, I have a tickle in my throat and if I run if might turn it into a full blown cold. I am full of the excuses it just sucks, I hope I will regain control soon. Good luck ladies for the next week.

Re-Committing!

OK so the last contest I didn't do all that much and I still lost 4 pounds even though I could have tried so much harder and done so much more. Alright new change of plan do better. There is NOTHING worse in this world that being fat in the summetime and not finding cute shirts and capris and just having to cover and layer. It totally sucks so therefore I am joining the good fight and jumping back on the wagon. Here we go and I'm off!!

It's All Downhill

I can pinpoint pretty much when the downhill started, the day I made Valentine cupcakes for Alli's school class and when the Valentine candy also started pouring in. I have not been doing well at all. Just terrible really. My husband and I have had a glimpse of possibly moving to Phoenix and I am dreading it!! All this super skinny competitive women I don't think I can take it. Maybe peer pressure and super low self-esteem is what will motivate me more. It's not the work outs for me I am still doing well on that front it is mainly the sweets. My husband brought home a case of Twix from work for craps sake!! What the hell is he thinking??? Oh man I am still plodding along and will always keep joining contest after contest. I hope the rest of you were doing well. Also I was busted last night by Amy drinking a Dr. Pepper. I suck!!

Getting Closer

OK just 1 pound but I freaking worked my butt off this week I mean like really. I barely ate anything and I ran like a demon so where is my ultimate reward you ask well... one measly pound!! Holy cow I need to get to 140 by the end I need to step it up and shock my body somehow. Any tips???

I love Pasta!!

My husband is super about my weight so this isn't true for me and if it is true for you girls well... just whip those men into shape!! So went to the Pasta House here in Pinetop last night and ate like a whole basket of bread all by myself. I am struggling the most probably with going out to eat and also with late night eating. I get all of my dinner done by 6:30 and than of course I stay up until 9:30 or 10 which means that I start to get the munchies again. I guess that I should just go to bed earlier or just stay as busy as possible to get my mind off of food, right?? Anyways always vowing to do better the next week.

Periods and Pounds

Well I started my period this very morning of weigh-in. Not to mention I am going to the temple this morning which also brings horror stories and thoughts of terror. I still lost 1 pound though and I consider it a tremendous victory among bloating and such. I am struggling so much with this last weight, why is it so flippin hard?? Oh well will try harder this week.

Yep the picture is small but that is me on the right and my mom in the middle and my sister on the left. I sure hope my mom and sister don't get wind of this but the women in my family are just bigger women. I think I may have just gotten lucky being the smaller of them but if I don't stay in line it is only a matter of time. I know that I have a tendency towards it and I fight it so darn much!! I wish I could just lose this last 10-15 pounds and just be done with it for the rest of my life. Maybe fluctuate 5 pounds here and there but just be done!! I am done having my babies so there should be no excuse at all. It is getting towards the summertime by the end of this contest and there is nothing worse than being fat for summer. I really didn't try much this past contest and I still got third place last contest so that means none of us did well for the holidays so oh well this should be the time!! Good luck ladies I am rooting for you all big time!!